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24 April 2006 @ 01:17 am
I'm tired of these things (web journals).

If you want to know anything else going on with me, you can just talk to me yourself. I'm done.
22 April 2006 @ 01:25 pm
Well..I've got good news and bad news. Since the bad news dwarfs the good news by quite a bit, I'll go ahead and give the good news. My mom got a new car! It's a '06 Eclipse and is oh so pretty. She about got it in the lovely orange color, but got the silver kind instead.

Onto the bad news. My mom has cancer again. She told me yesterday and only found out Thursday herself. She has 5 tumors in her lungs (the largest is 2 cm across), 2 in her abdomen (sp?), and one on her colon again. She goes Monday to have surgery and starts chemo again soon. I'm terrified of the surgery because the last time she had one where they found the cancer for the first time, she flatlined during it and they had to revive her. So if you know me, and I get a little funny sometimes, this is why. Please keep her in your thoughts because this is going to be even harder the second time around. At least I'll be with her more this time and I'll be able to help take care of her. And yes, I'm still moving down here. Nothing is going to stop me from moving here now that that has happened.

I might update when I get back to my dad's Sunday night, I might not. It really just depends on my mood.
Current Mood: draineddrained
05 April 2006 @ 02:41 pm
Just remembered that I had taken some pictures of my room last time I was at my mom's house. Under the cut!

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03 April 2006 @ 01:35 pm
Excuse the lack of updates. Lots and lots has been happening. Working, school, pony rides, drama, new boyfriend ;D

Pony rides were fun. Have a LAN coming up, then a barn lock-in shortly after. I can't complain about the boyfriend. He likes horses, wants some, can ride, is sweet, does well (boy drives an avalanche!), is cute. So, no complaints. Annddd, can't say much for anything else. I'm trying to focus on the positive aspects right now anyway.

Something a little more in-depth later. Laundry has to be done, I've got to pick up a computer later, and barn/dinner with Jenni!
08 March 2006 @ 01:54 pm
So yeah, I never update this thing anymore. Lots going on as usual.

Going Friday to register for college in Charleston. I'm wanting to move more and more everyday. There's people here that I thought I would hate leaving..but I'm not so sure I feel that way about it anymore. They are almost another reason I want to go ahead and move.

I'm getting tired of having to act happy when I'm not really. It's starting to wear on me. It's nice that I found someone to talk to about some of it, but I don't know if it's worth being ignored by another that I care about and have known longer. I suppose that is just how things work, and if that is the case...then why does it still bother me?

I've really just got too many things on my mind to bother with this at the moment.
17 February 2006 @ 01:11 am
Thinking about moving...

Just me.There really isn't anything holding me here anymore. I'm selling Contaro, a job is a job is a job and the one I have comes a dime a dozen, I'll be graduating soon. Jenni is about the only reason to stay, and I could still come back and see her. Kt is going to go to college upstate so she won't be here for me to see most of the time anyway. Granted I have other friends, but Kt and Jenni are pretty much the closest of them all. I would of course miss everyone, but I would be back up to visit at least once a month (I figured once of twice a month would work).

I've been talking about moving out, but seeing as how I have no one to move in with or to get a place with at the moment, this seems best. I'll be getting away from here (FINALLY) but not throwing myself out there and having to survive by working a part time job and going to school on my own.

I still need to discuss it with the parental units and see what they think, but they are pretty good about letting me decide what I want for myself as long as it a reasonable decision (and dare I say my mom would be highly delighted to hear about this).

I've still got a few months to debate this, but I'm liking the idea of not being around here much longer, as might a few of you.

I've got a room 3 times as big as this one waiting for me to just live in it and make is somewhat of a home, and a walk-in-closet so bare it doesn't even have a hanging set-up in it for cloths. I could pay for the dial-up, and the DSL when it gets out that way (which will be in no time, considering they are putting thousands of homes around in the area). I get excited just thinking about it. New friends, spending time with my mom (I hated not being able to be there when she had her surgery about a yr ago), hanging out with my cousin, somewhat of a fresh start. Something I feel I need. I may just be calling Chuck-town home soon.
05 February 2006 @ 08:38 pm
I know what you did.

Don't lie about it.

I know what you showed people.

You will never live this down. Don't bother trying to contact me for any reason, I don't want to have anything to do with you. Fuck off.
02 February 2006 @ 10:29 pm
One. If you lack so much of a life that you get mad when you can't see an entry of someone you aren't even that close with, then you are just pathetic. Get over it. You can't see the entry. Don't email constantly about it because that is just ridiculous. What is really bad, is the only way you know you can't see the entry, is you take the time to look through the calendar and click on each day there was an entry posted to see if you can view it or not. That is a little...what would one say...obsessive? It certainly weirds me out a little. I'm sure everyone is excited to see you care that much, but you don't have to get pissed about it.

Two. It's not going to happen. No matter how hard you try to be nice, I'm going to only respond, at most, with a lackluster tone. I'm not interested in being friends with you, and I thought that I have made that clear (I suppose I haven't). Maybe now I have. I don't comment in anything of yours, possibly because I might have the "It's my journal, blahblahblah" card pulled on me or just the simple fact that I don't feel any need to.

So yeah, go right ahead and comment away since this post is directed at you two. I'm not going to contradict myself by making a post about someone, and then whine about it being my journal. Go ahead and say what you wish, I won't respond, but go at it.
30 January 2006 @ 11:21 pm
Things are good. I managed to get 34 hours at work this week. Not bad for part time. That and I was being asked to come in today. Which would have made 40 hours. Nice paycheck, but not with having to go to school right now.

Also got a call for working with a horse (possibly horses). Thankfully I know the woman, so I might just take her up on it.

If that is the case, and if Mark contacts me about that gelding, I could possibly be working 4 jobs at one point during the summer. That being, training for the woman, training for Mark, helping with a riding camp for two weeks, and still working at the grocery store. Hectic, but more money for me to save up. At least this will only be during the summer. I'll really need a vacation after all of that.

School, work, work, school. That's about my life right now.

I can't wait to sell my saddle so I can take the money and build myself a computer. And to get DSL. DSL may come sooner than the computer, because this 56k shit is pissing me off. I don't care so much that I'll be paying for it, considering I'm the one on here mostly as it is.

I may go out to lunch tomorrow with Jenni. Then drag her to wal-mart with me to get some pictures printed to show someone interested in Contaro.

I'll see.
07 January 2006 @ 04:25 pm
Got my system hooked up. Krao said my trunk was going to explode. I'm very happy with it. ^^ Still need my front speakers put in to replace the old ones. Hopefully that'll happen soon.

Woman called me about lessons the other night. Didn't get her business because well..I don't have a lesson horse anymore as it is nor the room, and her daughter wants to take group lessons so she can meet other girls who like riding. It still made me happy for the fact that I don't even have ads up anymore and one of the women at Horse Sense gave her my number.

Not working at Mark's for a short while. He is happy with what I've done with both of the mares and he wants to get a round pen built so I can start working with the gelding and get him broke. I have to say, I am proud of Shadow (the little mare). That horse was hardly saddle broke when I started her and now she'll load like an angel, has been on a 3 hour trail ride and done awesome, and his daughter even took a lesson on her (actually on both her and Lena, the big mare).

Not a lot has happened otherwise.